As I sit here and think about how crazy this past three weeks have been I really have not stopped running. I spent way to many hours in the rink. It’s been tough.
This past week has been an emotional roller coaster because I have been sooooo tired but let me tell you something. Looking back on it there was some positive moments that have helped me be extremely happy and grateful today. Here they are.
1) deleted the number of an individual who didn’t deserve my time anymore. I have come to terms that if someone isn’t willing to put the effort in why should I.
2) I had a glass of wine (may have been a bottle the glasss was realllllly big) and I cried my heart out while watching a sappy chick flick while laying in my onesie. This was probably my best decision Saturday evening after a 12 hour day at the rink. I have trouble letting my emotions out. I let them build inside and I don’t let it out. I give and give to everyone but myself that Saturday night I just broke down. When my bestfriend said she’d come pick me up after sending a picture of mascara running down my face and a glass of one I said no I needed to do this. Truth be told I needed to be alone. I needed to let it all out. I needed to stop masking my feelings. I needed to just be. It really helped me as I woke up the next day feeling relaxed and ready to take on the day.
3) I got my workouts in. I worked hard this week. I did them alone where the world goes away and all you have to focus on is your workout. Never miss a Monday or a Friday I say. I got a buddy workout in which included girl talk and a sauna which was extremely relaxing. And as always I got my training session in with josh and we worked some magic and I felt my hand again for another 26 hours! Crazy what exercise can do!
4) I had pizza and wings with the girls! Although a short visit it always takes the stress of the day/week when you sit down for food with the ones who let you be you no judgement and just be!
5) Finally I took small moments throughout the day to read. I’m still reading the desire map and it is amazing.
I hope you have a great Super Bowl weekend. Remember it is okay to be alone. You don’t need anyone! You are strong and independent and can take on the world. It is okay to cry and feel like you need someone to help you back up. But you got this. Nobody can live your life. Nobody fully understands what you go through day in day out. There will be those special people who are there every step of the way and those people are the real MVPs. They will be there when you show the door to those people who aren’t benefitting your life. It’s difficult to close doors but sometimes it’s the best and one day you’ll realize closing the door left room for something bigger and better.
Happy flex Friday! Xox 