It’s been awhile and for that I’m sorry. Until this exact moment I️ forgot what it was like to have the overwhelming feeling of needing to get the thoughts racing through my head on paper.
Life it’s a crazy ride sometimes we get busy and start doing new things and forget about old and sometimes everything seems to be moving sooo fast you reach for anything around you to hold on tighter.
New. Change. Next chapter. Scary. Exciting. Overwhelming. But happy.
2.5 years ago for the first time in my life I️ moved into an apartment alone. For the first time in my life I️ had a place to call my own and only mine. I️ learned to fend for myself more so than when you live with roommates. Here if there was a mess it was your mess and you had to clean it up. Here if you wanted to listen to music loudly you did. Here if you wanted to sit in your pjs all day and eat at weird hours you did.
2.5 years ago I️ was a girl that if I️ saw her today I’d tell her that she was in for some huge exciting life changes. I’d tell her she would make it. Should would grow to love her apartment. She would learn to walk and run. She’d work and finally end up in a job that allows her to put her credentials after her name and mean something. Still crazy to see Tiffany Gervasi R.Kin in Writing. I’d tell her that even on some of the darkest days she’d be surrounded by so much more than she knew. I’d tell her she’d meet someone who would end up completely changing her world for the better. I’d tell her one day she wouldn’t be alone.
In the last month everything has changed for me. New job. Moving. And probably a new vehicle. New beginnings. I️ don’t do well without a plan or changes to the plan. I️ knew I️ was moving. I️ knew I️ was starting a new job but little did I know they would all happen in the same week. Little did I️ know I’d have a terrible moment and end up probably writing my car off. Little did I️ know I’d get approved for what is quite honestly my dream car. Little did I️ know the overwhelming feeling of pride hearing the words of you have been approved. Me. The girl who has been through so much but always tried to keep everything above water. Me just me no help from anyone I️ am approved to buy my dream vehicle.
Today as I️ sit here overwhelmed and slightly freaking out I️ am reminded to look around and take a minute to breath. Take a minute to cry but stand back up and make today my day.
Today I️ take a leap. Today I️ take my belongings and I️ pack them up and today I️ leave an apartment that taught me I️ am okay on my own. I️ am strong and able. Today I️ share space again today I️ start a new chapter. Today I️ fully let someone in and allow that someone to end up being part of my every day life. This week I️ decide if car owner is something I️ can do.
But for this short moment I️ sit in silence and complete awe of everything that has happened in the last 2.5 years of living here in my very first solo apartment.
One things for sure this might be one of the most exciting chapters of my story and I️ can’t wait to see what’s written next!