Ever feel like your life is just spinning and happening in front of you and you just don’t know how to get off the crazy ride….
this is how I have been feeling… I started a new job in February that has been one of the largest learning curves and the faster pace I’ve ever worked at. I come home feeling mentally and physically exhausted. Then you add on top of the all the other commitments and life living things you gotta do and the time seeems to go even faster.
I’ve beeen mentally struggling to keep up with all my commitments. I felt like my glass was empty and I couldn’t fill it while filling everyone else’s cups around me. I was feeling pretty defeated and my mind raced with ways to escape and ground myself.
Being a small town girl who never really lived in a city until adulthood I find the need for nature and calmness. I am one of those people that find Thunder Bay large and busy. I find it hard to escape and find quiet. Today I was feel exceptionally fidgety and needing to run and be free…
So that’s what I did. I escaped. I drove and I drove and I drove…
what started out as a seemingly easy meeting with my friend to get a gym membership turned into a soul nurturing renewing of the faith trip.
We were five minutes from home and had a quick fifteen minute meeting easy to just go home after but as I had mentioned I had the need to escape. I had decided if my friend didn’t need to go home right away to drive to the other side of town to get gas. After gas I decided to show her the rink I always timekeep at and once there I figured we should take the long way home. We turned the opposite way from town down back roads and weaved are way through the country. We found peace, quiet and beauty. We found rivers and horses and saw mountains and trees. We were silent and we were telling stories healing from the past. We were lost in nature down back roads not knowing where we were headed. It was freeing. We ended up at kakabecka falls where we got out and walked around the falls. Experienced the power of the water and walked through the paths. Saw a bunny and took in the vitamin D from the sun. We got hungry and stopped in to have the best burger I’ve ever eaten and further talked and sat in comfortable silence. After stuffing our stomachs we headed back out. Again not down the straight path home but back on the winding back roads in the quiet…
4 hours later and 100 km I feel renewed. I feel ready to tackle the weeks obsticals. I feel a sense of calm and peace of mind for the first time in awhile.
I reminded myself how important it is to just stop and to breath. I reminded myself how much I loved driving with no destination in mind down the back country roads. I used to do it daily back home and haven’t in forever. It was definitely needed. I feel a weight off my shoulders. I feel like this evening was important. I feel it’s good to just stop. Breath and do something spontaneous without a plan without expectation just dream and go with where you soul takes you. My mind and body needed the quiet. Needed the peace and beauty of nature.
Stop and take a breath. Stop filling everyone’s cup up before your own. You are number one. You need a full cup in order to give. I have a lot to give and I care too much but It was important to go out and do me. Be present in the moment. Let yourself experience the adventure. Don’t just watch your life spin and spin. Slow it down.
Breath in nature
